in the end, none of it mattered

~ Sad thing is, you can still love someone, and    be wrong for them.   ~ You know how it is when you don't want to     miss them, but you want them to miss you.     --Summerland--   ~ When you love someone, you are giving them     the power to hurt you.   ~ People change and forget to tell each other.     --Lillian Hellman   ~ It's funny how the people that hurt you the    most, are the one's that promised they never    would.   ~ Please don't lead me on if you don't care    about me...I'd rather you be with me because    you want to be, rather you feel like you're    obligated to be with me.   ~ I want to be someone's last call of the night    and their first thought in the morning.  I want    those 5 hour conversations that end in 'no    you hang up first.'  I want the heart racing,    palm sweaty, 'what's gonna happen next    moments.  I want the hugs that you never    want to let go of & the stolen kisses that are    always the sweetest.  But most importantly, I    just want to know someone considers me    theirs.   ~ Cause you deserve so much more than you     receive, listen to your heart and let it show.     Don't hold on to your pain...just let it go, let     it go.   ~ You know what I just realized?  I'm in love     with you, yes, but I'm in love with the you I     used to know...you've changed too much.  All     I can do is hope for the real you to come     back...and then, maybe then, being in love     won't be so bad.   ~ It's so hard to show everyone that I'm doing    fine without you when deep inside I'm not.     It's hard because I have to smile when I     really can't hold back my tears...cause as far    as I can see, you're doing fine without me...   ~ You said you loved and you'd never let me     go...Now it seems like these tears are all I     know.   ~ It's hard to get over him when *everything*    reminds you of him...   ~ The bad thing about a girl with a broken     heart is that she starts to hand out the pieces     to anyone who comes around.   ~ How do you prepare a heart to be broken, or    dreams to fall through?  How do you let go of    a miracle, who means everything to you?    How do you walk away, with tears in    your eyes?  Letting go isn't easy, you can    only pray you'll survive.   ~ There are so many things I wish I could tell you, but I can't.  I'm not sure if you would ever understand because I don't understand half of it.  I want to be with you so bad, but I'm so afraid of getting hurt and because of that, I end up getting hurt more.  I can sit here and say that I don't care about you and that I'm not going to let you hurt me, and just by saying that I know that you can and have.  It's not your fault, it never is.  It's me.   ~ I'm going out of my mind, with a pain that stops and starts, like a corkscrew through my heart, ever since we've been apart.   ~ Maybe she's a little too loud sometimes.  But deep down she's shy and hides herself and her heart.  This girl doesn't want her heart broken.  Not again.   ~ I want to do to you exactly what you did to me.  I want to lead you on, make you fall for me and then just let go...I want to confuse you like you confused me...but most of all, I want you to feel the pain that I felt.