quiet

it's time to share something now..
seriously, i miss my blog..
im rarely open my blog ..:(
how bad am i..:'(

imma feel so alone now..
have so many friend..
but like have no friend,
fake friends, not real friend..

i will not talk to them..
cause i know, they want to talk to me..
better imma keep quiet,
like we never met..


im keep quiet, doesnt mean i hate them,
stopped to love them or anything la..

i choose to keep quiet,
cause i dont want to bother them,..

anything

im go online on fb,
nah~ when u see im online,
then, u go offline..

i know, u try to stay away from me noe.. :)
its up to u la..
i dont care,

but, remember, i'll be here when u need me..
i dont want to have enemy..
i have no time to hate ppl who hate me or dont lime me.
because im too busy loving ppl who love me..

im still kind, dont want be a bad girl,
even so many ppl hurt me.:)
i still can smile..love end..but life still not end.

sometime, im stress cause think too much..
then, i drink lots of vodka or anything..
that ma habit, i keep it all..

i wont start the conversation,
doesnt mean i dont want talk to u..
i just dont want to bother u..
u have someone else now, even i dunno,
u both ady taken or not,
but im glad to heard that.

before break up with u,,
i ever tell u,,
if u're happy, im happy
if u're sad, im sad..
remember it ? :)

break up doesnt mean we cant be a good friend..
im not a kids, who after break up be an enemies..
im a teenager, i can use my brain to think,,
we cant force someone to love us..
if they do it, thats mean FAKE LOVE

remember, im here for everyone who need me..
i will be a kind ppl, if u all u kind to me..:)
simple as that..
i dont care u're a gay, lesbian,bisexual, fat, skin, tall, short,white,black,rich,poor.
or anything..
God never choose a friends rite.? so, why we need to choose a friends ?
so weirdo, we're same in God eyes..
:)

Lee Sung Chul - No One Else (ost EOE)

No One Else (Korean, Romanization and Translations)

KOREAN + ROMANIZATION

천번이고 다시 태어난데도
cheonbeonigo dasi taeeonandedo

그런 사람 또 없을테죠 음~
geureon saram tto eobseultejyo eum~
슬픈 내 삶을 따뜻하게 해줄
seulpeun nae sarmeul ttatteutage haejul
참 고마운 사람입니다
cham gomaun saramimnida
그런 그대를 위해서 나의 심장쯤이야
geureon geudaereul wihaeseo naui simjangjjeumiya
얼마든 아파도 좋은데
eolmadeun apado joheunde
사랑이란 그 말은 못해도 먼곳에서 이렇게
sarangiran geu mareun motaedo meongoseseo ireoke
바라만 보아도 모든걸 줄수 있어서 사랑할수 있어서
baraman boado modeungeol julsu isseoseo saranghalsu isseoseo
난 슬퍼도 행복합니다
nan seulpeodo haengbokhamnida

나 태어나 처음 가슴 떨리는
na taeeona cheoeum gaseum tteollineun
이런 사랑 또 없을테죠
ireon sarang tto eobseultejyo
몰래 감춰둔 오랜 기억속에 단 하나의 사랑입니다
mollae gamchwodun oraen gieoksoge dan hanaui sarangimnida
그런 그대를 위해서 아픈 눈물쯤이야
geureon geudaereul wihaeseo apeun nunmuljjeumiya
얼마든 참을수 있는데
eolmadeun chameulsu inneunde
사랑이란 그 말은 못해도 먼곳에서 이렇게
sarangiran geu mareun motaedo meongoseseo ireoke
바라만 보아도 모든걸 줄수 있어서 사랑할수 있어서
baraman boado modeungeol julsu isseoseo saranghalsu isseoseo
난 슬퍼도 행복합니다
nan seulpeodo haengbokhamnida
아무것도 바라지 않아도
amugeotdo baraji anhado
그대 웃어준다면 난 행복할텐데
geudae useojundamyeon nan haengbokhaltende
사랑은 주는거니까 그저 주는거니까
sarangeun juneungeonikka geujeo juneungeonikka
난 슬퍼도 행복합니다
nan seulpeodo haengbokhamnida


TRANSLATIONS

even if i'm reborn a thousand more times
there wouldn't be another person like you Mm~
the person who would warm up my sad life
i'm grateful for that person
for that person, my heart could
hurt indefinitely
even if i can't tell that i love you, the fact that I'm
able to look at you from a distance, give you everything and love you
even if i'm sad, i'm happy

there is no other love in the world
that would make my chest shake with anticipation like this
my one love that i've hidden so far within my memories
for a person like you, i could endure
painful tears indefinitely
even if i can't tell that i love you, the fact that I'm
able to look at you from a distance, give you everything and love you
even if i'm sad, i'm happy
I don't want anything else except
your laughter. with it, I'll be happy
because love is all about giving, just about giving
so even if i'm sad, i'm happy

none

i miss my blog..:')

but someday, i will leave my blog..

cause my story will be end soon..

i've no idea..

now, im bored to play my fb acc and my twitter acc..

no one talk to me..

i think, i have no real friends on fb.

first time i know them..yea,, they're so nice to me..

but now, they're ignore me..

i wont talk to them not mean im arrogant or etc..

i just waiting for their wall post or chat..

but now, i dont need it again..

i know, they wouldn't like before..

 oppa sch is change, daddy is change,  everyone is change..

20 august is daddy birthday..

after say "happy birthday" to him..

i will leave my fb acc..

text or bbm me, if u need me..

29F88365 >> my BB pin

i want amnesia..T____T

headache headache and headache..T_T

im serious, im not joking..

my head so hurt..:'(

die, die la..

die better..

im tired to feel headache like this..

hope i will die soon..

who care ? no one care.

if i cant die.

i want amnesia forever..

dunno who are u..

when i meet u, i will say "who are you ? , what are u doing in here ?, where am i ?

huuuuu..:(

seriously, if i cant die,,i want die la..

if i cant, amnesia its okay..

hope tomorrow i dunno who are u all..

im sorry la..

thats what i want..

pabo always pabo..

B C >> dont care la..

symptoms of brain cancer :

• headache
• Weakness
• Clumsiness
• Difficulty walking
• seizures 

ciri-ciri kanker otak :

1. sakit kepala disertai mual sampai muntah yang menyemprot
2. daya penglihatan berkurang
3. penurunan kesadaran atau perubahan perilaku
4. gangguan berbicara
5. gangguan pendengaran
6. gangguan berjalan / keseimbangan tubuh
7. gangguan saraf
8. anggota gerak melemah atau kejang
9. pada bayi biasanya ubun-ubun besar menonjol

 1,2,3,4,5,8 >> same like what i feel..

but im not sure, that i've brain cancer..

no prob la, die die la.dont care..die better than i feel headche almost 3 weeks.

 

huh..:'( T___T hurt

why im so pabo ? T__T

always thinking about him.

who never thinking about me ?  T____T

always get dizzy ..

am i still in love with him ?

oh God ,.i will say yes..:'(

imma still love him..

i know, im so stupid to love someone who never love me..

but, i dont know why,

i always feel like this..

this heartbeats..:( i miss u,

i miss to talk with u..

i miss to hug u ..:(

wanna die soon..

i hate this feeling..:'(

crying is the best way for now..

its so hard to try to be a stronger,

when i get this condition..

no one knows what i feel..

no one will understand..

u're happy in there..

im so hurt in here.

can u see ?

i need glue to glue my heart..

baby, can u see, how much i love u ? :(

everytime, i always thinking about u,

i dont know u will do what i do or not..

yes, i miss u, no, i wont talk to u first.

Dumbass!

this's so dumbass la..!

what the fakk.!

seriously since we were break up..

why i still cant forget all about u till now..

errr..!!

i hate you .. 

i've been deact my fb acc ..

and i think i'll leave social network soon..

this's for try to forget all about ya.

my mind is running, my heart is hurting,.

damn..

say no to fall in love..

im so regret to know u..

i hope i will got amnesia soon..!

i hate to fall in love with u..

im so fucking stupid la..

because imma accept statement of ur love..

go die better.!

seriously i never feel fucking heartbreaker like this..!

 Chen is DEAD..!

HATERS MAKE ME FAMOUS

feel so bad..:(

i dunno why,

seriously, feel so alone,.

but i dont want to talk ..

okay fine..

i've been let u go..

but u still run on my mind,,

wtf,!

paboo rite..

goarrrr..

LOVE = FUCK

no boy, no cry, and never feel fucking hurt..!

gonna deac my acc again..=="

cause when im online..

i dunno, why i always look at ur profile..

damn..

i wish i had never meet u la..

if i feel this feeling..

my friend ady tell me..

why u wanna break up with me..

its cause of  ur friends rite,,

i dont care they're girl or boy..

the most important i never judge u..

never forbid u to hanging out with ur friends..

or anything..

and i also NEVER JUDGE UR FRIENDS..!!

dont ever judge me if u dunno me..

just wanna ask..

why ur friends dont like me ??

they're ever meet me ? they're ever see my behavior ?

hate my style because im a tomboy girl ? jealous with me ?

remember "HATERS MAKE ME FAMOUS"

thanks for anything..:) hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha..!!!!

lets hate me to make me famous,,!

proud of ur friends ..

i never meet ur friends before,.

so, i dont want to judge them or anythings..

im a good girl..

im proud of my friends..

because they're never judge my other friends or my boyfriend..

they're kind to me..

KARMA'S STILL VALID..:)

About me..:D ♥

wanna know about me ? :)

okay, cekidot..=3

Real Name : Ely 

Nick Name : Ely or Chen

Birthday : 19 january 1995

Zodiac : Capricorn

Religion : Christian

Blood Type : A

Nationality : Chinese - Indonesian

Hight : around 160cm

Weight : 48kg

Number Phone : secret
Facebook account : https://www.facebook.com/elz.e.chen

Twitter account : https://twitter.com/xan_ai

Blackberry Pin : Ask me.! (i just give my pin to my bestfriend and my family) *sorry*

----------------------------THINGS THAT I LOVE----------------------------------

--i love grape,watermelon,strawberry,chocolate,manggo
--i love my friends
--i love my family
--i love my honey :*
--i love Big bang, 2ne1,B2ST,ss501 and Taiwanese songs !
--i love U :D
--i love listening to music
--i love caring, loving, and friendly personalities
--i love myself ;)
--i love sleeping -.-'
--i love reading books
--i love to be with U :*

 ----------------------------THINGS THAT I HATE---------------------------------

--i hate dirty persons
--i hate person saying bad words
--i hate bullies!
--i hate LIARS!
--i hate persons that don't keep their promises
--i hate to see u sad =.=
--i hate discriminating persons
--i hate hot places
--i hate noisy and loud sounds
--i hate bad persons
--i hate disgusting things
--i hate people forcing to do something they don't want

NB :

1. ~if u really want to be my friend, be sure u're not in my HATEST THINGS

2.  ~i'm a nice person but I'm a devil when u hurt one of my friends..

3.  ~i'm a simple girl with a simple face ..:)

wanna got amnesia..!

:(

i dunno why,

but, i just want to be alone..

always got bad mood..

dont ask me why ..

i also dunno ..:(

feel so bad..

mianhae~

i want to be a bad girl now..

try to dont care about ppl..

dont care about anything..

why im so easy to fall in love with someone ?

this's s*ck question..!

okay then,

dont want to fall in love with someone..

better im alone..or got amnesia..

f*ck this life..!

goodbye hubby..:')

even we're not together,.

not in a relationship..

not means we can be a friend..

still love each other as a friend..

not more..

before u say it..

i already can feel it..

that we will break up..

i'll be happy, if u're happy..

i'll sad, if u're sad..

i can feel what u feel..

i can guess what u think..

something like that..

not more, i just want to be alone rite now..

im so sorry, 

i cant give u perfect relationship..

i cant hold our relationship..

i know just worth it, 

if i try to hold it..

the most important..

i still love you..:')

just say goodbye and give ur smile to me..

a fake smile can hide a million tears ..:')

Sadness~

HANGUL

baby i don`t wanna cry
제발 날 울리지마
이러다 죽을지 몰라

baby don`t you break my heart
내게 상처주지마
돌아와 니가 필요해

너의 집앞에
자주 가던 카페
지금 너를 기다리는데

전화라도 받아줘
대답이라도줘
대체 넌 어디있는거니.. oh baby

ooh~~
나는 너무 가슴이 아파
ooh~~
너와의 추억이 참 많아…

baby i don`t wanna cry
제발 날 울리지마
이러다 죽을지 몰라

baby don`t you break my heart
내게 상처주지마
돌아와 니가 필요해

니가 준 편지
니 마지막 얘기
이별이란 짧은 두글자..

아무렇지 않은척
별일도 아닌척
웃어도 눈물이 흐르네 oh baby

ooh~~
라디오에 흐르는 노래
ooh~~
니가 좋아했던 이 노래..

baby i don`t wanna cry
제발 날 울리지마
이러다 죽을지 몰라

baby don`t you break my heart
내게 상처주지마
돌아와 니가 필요해

미친사람처럼 거리를 헤매
너와 갔던 곳 찾아 가네
실타래처럼 막 뒤엉키는 감정이 슬픔이 (나를 울리네)

둘러보아도 보이지 않어
너를불러도 들리지않어
come back to me again
지금 내 곁으로 오면 돼 i miss u

제발 떠나가지마
제발 날울리지마
어떻게 날 두고 떠나

모두 악몽일거야
깨면 돌아올거야
돌아와 나의 곁으로
oh ~ yeah

baby listen to this song
lady listen to this song
baby listen to this song
lady listen to this song

제발 날 떠나가지마
제발 날 울리지는마

돌아와 나의 곁으로

...........

ROMANIZATION

baby i don`t wanna cry
jebal nal ullijima
ireoda jugeulji molla

baby don`t you break my heart
naege sangcheojujima
dorawa niga pillyohae

neoui jibape
jaju gadeon kape
jigeum neoreul gidarineunde

jeonhwarado badajwo
daedabiradojwo
daeche neon eodiinneungeoni.. oh baby

ooh~~
naneun neomu gaseumi apa
ooh~~
neowaui chueogi cham manha…

baby i don`t wanna cry
jebal nal ullijima
ireoda jugeulji molla

baby don`t you break my heart
naege sangcheojujima
dorawa niga pillyohae

niga jun pyeonji
ni majimak yaegi
ibyeoriran jjarbeun dugeulja..

amureochi anheuncheok
byeorildo anincheok
useodo nunmuri heureune oh baby

ooh~~
radioe heureuneun norae
ooh~~
niga johahaetdeon i norae..

baby i don`t wanna cry
jebal nal ullijima
ireoda jugeulji molla

baby don`t you break my heart
naege sangcheojujima
dorawa niga pillyohae

michinsaramcheoreom georireul hemae
neowa gatdeon got chaja gane
siltaraecheoreom mak dwieongkineun gamjeongi seulpeumi (nareul ulline)

dulleoboado boiji anheo
neoreulbulleodo deullijianheo
come back to me again
jigeum nae gyeoteuro omyeon dwae i miss u

jebal tteonagajima
jebal narullijima
eotteoke nal dugo tteona

modu angmongilgeoya
kkaemyeon doraolgeoya
dorawa naui gyeoteuro
oh ~ yeah

baby listen to this song
lady listen to this song
baby listen to this song
lady listen to this song

jebal nal tteonagajima
jebal nal ullijineunma

dorawa naui gyeoteuro

...........

ENGLISH 

Baby, I don`t wanna cry
Please don’t make me cry
I didn’t know I can die like this

Baby, don`t you break my heart
Don’t torture* me
Come back, I need you

In front of your house
At the café we used to go to
I’m just waiting for you now

Can you accept my calls
Answer me at least
Where did you go.. oh baby

ooh~~
My hearts hurts so much
ooh~~
There are just too many memories of you

Baby, I don`t wanna cry
Please don’t make me cry
I didn’t know I could die like this

Baby, don`t you break my heart
Don’t torture* me
Come back, I need you

The letter you gave me
The last thing you said
‘Parting’ is just 2 letters too short

I’ll pretend I’m not bothered
It’s not a big deal anyways
Though I smile, tears keeps flowing down, oh baby

ooh~~
The song that comes out of the radio
ooh~~
It’s the song you liked so much

Baby, I don`t wanna cry
Please don’t make me cry
I didn’t know I could die like this

Baby, don`t you break my heart
Don’t torture* me
Come back, I need you

Wandering on the street like a mad man
I’m going to look for you wherever
The thread has been raveled, I’m filled with grief (My tears are flowing)

I couldn’t find you anywhere I look
I called you, maybe you didn’t heard
Come back to me again
If you just come to my side now, I miss u

Please don’t go away
Don’t torture* me
What should I do if you left me

Everything’s a nightmare
You’ll come back when I wake up
Come back to my side
Oh ~ yeah

Baby listen to this song
Lady listen to this song
Baby listen to this song
Lady listen to this song

Please don’t go away from me
Please don’t torture* me

Come back to my side

ngepost~

Yang indah hanya sεmεntara
Yang abadi adalah kεnangan
Yang ikhlas hanya dari hati
Yang tulus hanya dari sanubari

Tidak mudah mεncari yang hi?ang
Tidak mudah mεngεjar impian
Namun yang lεbih susah mεmpεrtahankan yang sudah ada
Karεna wa?aupun tεrgεnggam bisa tεrlεpas juga
Ingatlah pada pεpatah,
"Jika kamu tidak mεmiliki apa yang kamu sukai, maka sukailah apa yang kamu miliki saat ini"

Bεlajar mεnεrima apa adanya dan bεrpikir positif....
Rumah mεwah bagai istana, harta bεnda yang tak tεrhitung, kεdudukan, dan jabatan yang ?uar biasa, namun...

Kεtika nafas tεrakhir tiba, sεbatang jarum pun tak bisa dibawa pεrgi
Sεhεlai bεnang pun tak bisa dimiliki

Apalagi yang mau dipεrεbutkan
Apalagi yang mau disombongkan
Maka jalanilah hidup ini dεngan kεinsafan nurani
Jangan tεrlalu pεrhitungan
Jangan hanya mau mεnang sεndiri
Jangan suka sakiti sεsama apalagi tεrhadap mεrεka yang bεrjasa bagi kita
Sεlalu bεrlapang dada dan mengalah.
Tak ada yang tak bisa di ikhlaskan....
Tak ada sakit hati yang tak bisa dimaafkan
Tak ada dεndam yang tak bisa tεrhapus..

status yg kedua

1. Hari Kemarin (PAST)

Kita tidak bisa mengubah apa pun yang telah terjadi di hari kemarin.
Kita tidak bisa menarik perkataan yang telah terucapkan.
Kita tidak mungkin lagi menghapus kesalahan dan mengulangi kegembiraan yang kita rasakan kemarin.

Biarkanlah hari kemarin lewat; lepaskan saja...

2. Hari esok (Future)

Hingga mentari esok hari terbit, kita tidak tahu apa yang akan terjadi.
Kita tidak bisa melakukan apa-apa esok hari.
Kita tidak mungkin sedih ataupun ceria di esok hari.

Mengapa? Sebab esok hari belum tiba.

Jadi, biarkan saja...

3. Hari ini (Today)

Pintu masa lalu telah tertutup. Pintu masa depan pun belumlah tiba. Marilah kita menaruh perhatian untuk hari ini.

Kita bisa mengerjakan lebih banyak hal hari ini bila kita mau memaafkan hari kemarin dan melepaskan ketakutan akan esok hari.

Marilah kita "hidup" pada hari ini. Karena, masa lalu dan masa depan hanyalah permainan pikiran yang rumit.

Hiduplah apa adanya.
Karena yang ada hanyalah hari ini.

Perlakukanlah setiap orang dengan kasih dan rasa hormat, meski mereka berlaku buruk terhadap kita.

Janganlah mengizinkan masa lalu mengekang kita atau pun masa depan membuat kita menjadi kuatir dan bingung.

Mari kita lakukan yang terbaik HARI INI dan kita lakukan SEKARANG juga

status ke tiga

cinta itu semakin dicari, maka semakin tidak ditemukan. Cinta adanya di dalam lubuk hati, ketika dapat menahan keinginan dan harapan yang lebih. Ketika pengharapan dan keinginan yang berlebih akan cinta, maka yang didapat adalah kehampaan... tiada sesuatupun yang didapat, dan tidak dapat dimundurkan kembali. Waktu dan masa tidak dapat diputar mundur. Terimalah cinta apa adanya.

status ke empat

Kita pernah "DILUKAI"
dan mungkin pernah "MELUKAI"
tapi karena itu kita BELAJAR
tentang bagaimana cara menghargai, menerima, berkorban dan memperhatikan.

Kita pernah "DIBOHONGI"
dan mungkin pernah "MEMBOHONGI",
tapi dari itu kita belajar tentang KEJUJURAN.

Andaikan kita tidak pernah melakukan kesalahan dalam hidup ini, mungkin kita tidak pernah belajar arti diri MEMINTA MAAF dan MEMBERI MAAF.

Setiap waktu yang telah kita habiskan dalam hidup ini, tidak akan
terulang kembali. Namun ada satu hal yang masih tetap bisa kita lakukan,..
yaitu BELAJAR dari masa lalu untuk hari ESOK yang lebih baik.

Hidup adalah proses,
Hidup adalah belajar.
Tanpa ada batas umur,
Tanpa ada kata tua

JATUH, berdiri lagi
KALAH, mencoba lagi
GAGAL, bangkit lagi,
Sampai Tuhan memanggil:
"Waktunya PULANG"

status ke-5

I love you more every day
My name I long for you to say
Do you know just how I feel??
Do you know this love is real??
I just don't know what to do anymore
I love you more than you could know
And I don't want to ever let you go
So event if I'm just a good friend
I'll always love you until the end

status ke enam

Aku bukanlah orang yang hebat,
tapi aku mau belajar
dari orang orang yang hebat.
Aku adalah orang biasa
tapi aku ingin menjadi
orang yang luar biasa.
Dan aku bukanlah orang yang istimewa
tapi aku ingin membuat seseorang
menjadi istimewa...

status ke 7 

kata-katamu adalah kualitas dirimu

status ke 8

Di balik "cie" ada kecemburuan
Di balik "gpp" ada masalah
Di balik "terserah" ada keinginan
Di balik "ya udah" ada kekecewaan

status ke 9

Aku Tidak Berharap Untuk
Menjadi Orang yang
Terpenting Dalam Hidupmu
karena itu Merupakan
Permintaan yang Terlalu Besar Bagiku....
Aku hanya Berharap Suatu Saat Nanti
Jika Kau Melihatku.....
Kau akan Tersenyum dan Berkata..."Dialah Orang yang Selalu Menyayangiku...."

6 Juni

status ke 1

Aku Belajar Kasih, dari Orang Yang Membenciku...
Aku Belajar Tulus, dari Orang Yang Memperalatku...
Aku Belajar Setia, dari Orang Yang Mengkhianatiku...
Aku Belajar Bertahan, dari Orang Yang Memberiku Ketidakpastian...

status ke 2

Seseorang yg istimewa
Bukanlah dia yg selalu ada
di depan mata..
Bukan pula dia yg selalu ada
di sisi kita..
Tapi dia yg setia di hati &
yg selalu mengingat kita
di setiap doanya..

status ke 3

aku dicuekin udah BIASA
aku ga di anggap udah BIASA
aku ga di mengerti udah BIASA
punya janji ama kmu trus lupa udah BIASA
so kalo aku tiba-tiba hilang, anggap aja BIASA

10 juni

Kenangan ini terlalu indah untuk dilupakan dan terlalu pahit untuk diingat

11 Juni

Hidup adalah Perjuangan tanpa henti-henti ... tidak usah kau tangisi hari kemarin

13 Juni 

Wanita untuk disayang dan dilindungi bukan untuk dikuasa

yg kedua 

Terkadang, Tuhan menghilangkan sesuatu yang sangat berarti dari genggamanmu, agar kamu menyadari kesalahan dan berubah menjadi lebih baik

kutipan dari novel if someday : 

Ketika seseorang menutup ruang hatinya untukmu, yakinlah ada ruang hati lain yg menunggu untuk kau masuki.

Kau pasti tak tahu, betapa sakitnya cinta yg tak berbalas. Namun, kau harus tahu rasanya jauh lebih perih saat hatimu berkeras untuk tetap menunggu. Menunggu dia yg menganggapmu hanya seperti angin lalu. Menanti seseorang yg hanya menyayangimu sebatas sahabat. Begitu besarnya aku berharap dia akan berbalik, memandangku lekat seraya tersenyum, kemudian mengatakan "Aku juga mencintaimu." Mungkinkah itu terjadi ? Entahlah. Sejujurnya aku ingin bertahan, namun setiap hari, semakin kumeragu. Jadi, haruskah aku berhenti mengharapkanmu dan mulai merajut cinta bru ?

14 Juni

3 Pelajaran sederhana yg bbrp org perlu pelajari: Berpikir sblm bicara. Akui kesalahan sendiri. Ucapkan "Maaf".

15 Juni

Tulislah impianmu dan perlahan impian itu akan terwujud

15 juni

Tuhan, aku bahagia jika dia bahagia. tapi aku akan lebih bahagia jika alasan kebahagiaannya adalah diriku

yg kedua

Tuhan pasti merencanakan yg terbaik buat ku dan tidak akan memberikan cobaan melebihi kemampuan ku :') I believe it !!!

16 Juni

Tuhan bila masih ku diberi kesempatan...
Izinkan aku untuk mencintainya..

Namun bila waktuku telah habis dengannya...
Biarkan cinta ini hidup untuk s'kali ini saja...

yg kedua 

Ragukan bila bintang berhenti bersinar...
Ragukan bila matahari berhenti menyinari dunia...
Ragukan bila bumi berhenti berputar...
Tapi...
Jangan kau ragukan kesungguhan dan ketulusan cinta dan sayang padamu...

im so pabo~

paboya~
:(
sore throat and feel so bad..

appa and uncle didnt online..:(

wanna talk to them,.

huh~

u come and go without reason..

dont ask about my relationship..

im taken..

help me..

im so tired..will be die soon.

still like usual,

keep quiet..want to be alone..:(

i know everything has changed..:')

i can feel it..

i never feel alone,

because loneliness is always be with me..:')

 

 i proud of my heart..

its been played, stabbed, burned, cheated and broken..

but somehow still works..

thanks God..u made me feel so strong..

 everything has changed when im really in love with ya..:'(

die better

im so tired..

i'll be die soon.

i wish i will not wake up from my sleep tonight..

i miss daddy..:'(

wanna share something to him..

but he's not online..

i dunno what should i do now..

always feel headache..

because of thinking too much..

feel unwell..

better go die la..

hmmm..:(

why im so stupid na ??

this's bad life for me..

i'll never get my real smile anymore..

i give a fake smile to them,,

im so bad rite ?

should i change my haircut and be a tomboy like before ??

im tired to be a boy..

because i never love a girl..

 i dont want hurt their heart..

im like that, not mean im lesbian..!!
i just wanna having fun with them..

they're so funny..

really bad.

this headache going to kill me..

better like that..

 my life so bad..like me..

i feel, im nothing for them..

thats why, i wanna die..

dont want feel too much of  hurt..

I WISH, I WILL NOT WAKE UP FROM MY SLEEP TONIGHT..

AMEN..

 

i know imma bad gf.:')

feel so bad..:(

stupid ar~
i hate this feeling..

really hate this feeling..

i think u already bored with me..

thats why, u have change..

i really hate u.. :(

but i love u..

u just dunno how much ilu..

 and i can't explain it to u..

who am i to u ??

ur girlfriend ?? stranger ?? or ...??

honestly,

i feel, im like nothing for ya.

but, i dunno la..

i dunno u will love me like i do or not..

please, i beg u,

dont play with ma heart..

its so hurt..

u cant feel what i feel..

if u can feel it.

u'll undertstand.,

i hate when ppl try to ignore me.

dont blame me..

if i choose to forget about ya.. :'(

but im still love ya..

and i just try to hold our relationship,,

but i know, it will be broke..

 i just need someone..

who really love me..not more..

 pabo~

i dunno what should i do now..

wanna die soon..

aish~ :'(

Ada seorang cewek memberikan tantangan kepada cowonya untuk hidup tanpa drinya, untuk tidak ada komunikasi sama sekali antara mereka selama sehari.Dia berkata pada cwonya, kalo kamu bisa melewati itu, aku akan mencintai kamu selama nya.. Si cowonya pun setuju,, dia tidak sms/telpon ceweknya seharian..

Tanpa dia ketahui bahwa ceweknya hanya memiliki 24 jam untuk hidup, karena dia terkena kanker..

K'esookan harinya cowonya prg krummh ceweknya. Air matanya pun tiba2 menetes melihat ceweknya sudah terbaring dengan surat di tangannya yang tertulis "Kamu Berhasil Sayang, bisakah kamu lakukan itu stiap hari??I LOVE YOU.."

Don't Ever lost contact with someone you care, you'll never know what's gonna happen the next day, or the day after that..

Even a single "hi" or a "good morning" Before you know that someone is no longer there....

sorry, im not perfect

 hahaha..

 emm..-_-"

 blekkk..:P

 embbb..

 khakhakha..

 nyeknyeknyek~

 hembbb...:(

 hehhh..!!

 i just bite my lip..

 

my weird smile..=,=

Break up~

Title:  Break Up
Artist:  용감한 형제, 이기광 (비스트), 일렉트로보이즈
Album:  용감한형제 (Break Up)

Artist: Brave Brothers, Electroboyz & Kikwang (B2ST)

Hangul & Romanization :
니가 바로 내 앞에 있는 것만 같애
niga baro nae ape inneun geotman gatae
손을 뻗으면 닿을 것만 같애
soneul ppeodeumyeon daheul geotman gatae

뭐 그냥 잠시일 뿐이겠지라고 생각했던 이별의 후유증
mwo geunyang jamsiil ppunigetjirago saenggakhaetdeon ibyeorui huyujeung
허나 물 한잔도 벅차 나 혼자만 남아 아직 이별 중
heona mul hanjando beokcha na honjaman nama ajik ibyeol jung
너가 떠나고난 뒤 내 맘은 텅 빈 공터같아
neoga tteonagonan dwi nae mameun teong bin gongteogata
아무리 불러도 대답은 없어 그녀를 잊는 법 답은 없어
amuri bulleodo daedabeun eobseo geunyeoreul itneun beop dabeun eobseo

눈물로 가득 차 너 없는 매일 밤
nunmullo gadeuk cha neo eomneun maeil bam
차라리 너 없이 잘 지내란 말 하지마
charari neo eobsi jal jinaeran mal hajima
오직 그리움 뿐 죽도록 아플 뿐
ojik geurium ppun jukdorok apeul ppun
매일 너 하나만 기다릴 뿐
maeil neo hanaman gidaril ppun

Nobody 내 맘 알아 줄 사람 너 하난데
Nobody nae mam ara jul saram neo hanande
Somebody help me 너 없이 난 울고 있는데
Somebody help me neo eobsi nan ulgo inneunde
자꾸만 어긋나 점점 더 겁이 나
jakkuman eogeutna jeomjeom deo geobi na
B-B-B-B-Break up now

I don't wanna break up, don't wanna break up, I don't wanna break up
이 아픈 맘을 아니
i apeun mameul ani
I don't wanna break up, don't wanna break up, I don't wanna break up
B-B-B-B-Break up

날이 선 말들이 가슴에 박혀 나 숨 조차 벅차도록 망가져버린 맘
nari seon maldeuri gaseume bakhyeo na sum jocha beokchadorok manggajyeobeorin mam
지금 이 상황 감당하기 나 어려워 사랑했다보단 우린 이별했다에 더 가까워
jigeum i sanghwang gamdanghagi na eoryeowo saranghaetdabodan urin ibyeolhaetdae deo gakkawo

사랑에도 Up&Down 지금은 Down 하지만 다음에는 Up, up-up-up
sarangedo Up&Down jigeumeun Down hajiman daeumeneun Up, up-up-up
나는 어디로 튈지도 모르는 럭비공 I'm so unpredictable
naneun eodiro twiljido moreuneun reokbigong I'm so unpredictable
그러니 come here girl, 우린 아직 We ain't over
geureoni come here girl, urin ajik We ain't over
Forever like B&Hova 화 좀 풀고 Come closer
Forever like B&Hova hwa jom pulgo Come closer

Nobody 내 맘 알아 줄 사람 너 하난데
Nobody nae mam ara jul saram neo hanande
Somebody help me 너 없이 난 울고 있는데
Somebody help me neo eobsi nan ulgo inneunde
자꾸만 어긋나 점점 더 겁이 나
jakkuman eogeutna jeomjeom deo geobi na
B-B-B-B-Break up now

I don't wanna break up, don't wanna break up, I don't wanna break up
이 아픈 맘을 아니
i apeun mameul ani
I don't wanna break up, don't wanna break up, I don't wanna break up
B-B-B-B-Break up

Please call me tonight 내 손을 잡아 Don't wanna fight
Please call me tonight nae soneul jaba Don't wanna fight
헤어지기 싫어 Don't make me cry, girl don't make me cry
heeojigi sirheo Don't make me cry, girl don't make me cry
Girl let's make it right 떠나지마 It's not that time
Girl let's make it right tteonajima It's not that time
Don't say bye-bye-bye, Please don't say bye-bye-bye

Nobody 내 맘 알아 줄 사람 너 하난데
Nobody nae mam ara jul saram neo hanande
Somebody help me 너 없이 난 울고 있는데
Somebody help me neo eobsi nan ulgo inneunde
자꾸만 어긋나 점점 더 겁이 나
jakkuman eogeutna jeomjeom deo geobi na
B-B-B-B-Break up now

I don't wanna break up, don't wanna break up, I don't wanna break up
이 아픈 맘을 아니
i apeun mameul ani
I don't wanna break up, don't wanna break up, I don't wanna break up
B-B-B-B-Break up

English Translation :

It feels like you are right in front of me
It’s like I can touch you when I reach my hands out

The after effects of a farewell that I thought was going to be for a short while
But even drinking a glass of water is too much for me, I’m still in the break up stage
After you left, my heart is like an empty space
No matter how many times I call there is no answer
The method to forgetting her you ask? There is no answer

Each night without you, I’m filled with tears
Don’t even dare tell me to live better without you
There is only yearning, I think I’m in so much pain I might die
Each day I just wait for you

Nobody, you are the only person who will know my heart
Somebody help me , I am crying without you
We keep crossing paths, I’m getting even more scared
B-B-B-B-Break up now

I don’t wanna break up, don’t wanna break up, I don’ wanna break up
Do you know my painful heart?
I don’t wanna break up, don’t wanna break up, I don’ wanna break up
B-B-B-B-Break up

The words left over from the day is stabbed into my heart
My heart is hurting to the point I can’t breathe properly
It is hard for me to handle this situation
Instead of love, we were closer to farewell

Even for love it is Up&Down Right now we are Down But next time we will be Up, up-up-up
I’m the like the football that doesn’t know where I might go next, I’m so unpredictable
So come here girl, We still aren’t, we ain’t over
Forever like B&Hova , let go of that anger and Come closer

Nobody you are the only person who will know my heart
Somebody help me I am crying without you
We keep crossing paths, I’m getting even more scared
B-B-B-B-Break up now

I don’t wanna break up, don’t wanna break up, I don’ wanna break up
Do you know my painful heart?
I don’t wanna break up, don’t wanna break up, I don’ wanna break up
B-B-B-B-Break up

Please call me tonight Hold my hand Don’t wanna fight
Don’t want to break up, Don’t make me cry, girl don’t make me cry
Girl let’s make it right, Don’t leave me, It’s not that time
Don’t say bye-bye-bye, Please don’t say bye-bye-bye

Nobody, you are the only person who will know my heart
Somebody help me, I am crying without you
We keep crossing paths, I’m getting even more scared
B-B-B-B-Break up now

I don’t wanna break up, don’t wanna break up, I don’ wanna break up
Do you know my painful heart?
I don’t wanna break up, don’t wanna break up, I don’ wanna break up
B-B-B-B-Break up

forever alone

alone..

i think i should deac my account now..

i just share my story on my blog..

im not get mad..

just feel so stupid..

better im alone..

i really hate this feeling..

thanks for my fb friends who always care to me..

never forget all about u all..

 sometimes i just feel..

im nothing..

like im a stranger to all.

im so sorry ..

if, i ever say a bad thing..

i cant show what i feel..

just wanna be alone now..

DIE ? i think, this's a best way

stupid ar~

headache till DIE la..

go DIE better ar~

if  i've been die..

i wouldn't feel headache, appendicitis,

or anything like that..

waa,,wanna die ar~

sooo stupid ..

kill me la..go hell together,,!!

KILL ME..!!

WANNA DIE ..

i wanna met them in heaven..=3

my friends ..i miss them..:'(

take me with u la..:(

im so bored with this life~

i miss em..:( really miss em.

TAKE ME WITH U ALL..

tomorrow i've been die,,

something happens with me

i dunno why,
but my chest was so sore..
and i feel so hard to breathing..

its okay to me .
i'll be okay soon.

but, if everynight i always feel like this..
i think, i'll die soon..

because, no one knows,
my chest is always sore..

i dont want tell my mom, dad, or my bro..
i dont want make all of them worried about me..

Already Gone~

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

Even with our fists held high
It never would've worked out right
We were never meant for do or die

I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hold you, now I can't stop

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you want to cry

Started with a perfect kiss then we could feel the poison set in
Perfect couldn't keep this love alive
You know that I love you so, I love you enough to let you go

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
(From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/k/kelly-clarkson-lyrics/already-gone-lyrics.html)
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on so I'm already gone

Already gone, already gone, already gone
Already gone, already gone, already gone, yeah

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on so I'm already gone